What do you do when it just doesn’t work anymore? (personal & video)

Have you noticed that the old ways of doing things aren’t working anymore?

I sure have. In the past few weeks what’s worked before in my business just stopped working. I was stuck. Felt like a door I’d always been able to walk through before was now closed…

Why am I sabotaging myself?!” I  wondered, more and more anxiously.  “I need to make this work!!”

And I pulled out all the powerful tools I’ve learned to uproot limiting beliefs and soften subconscious resistance. But for the first time, my tools weren’t enough.

I stayed stuck. Just couldn’t get that old door to open.

So, feeling rather desperate, I tapped into my wonderful circle of support… and received a lot of  guidance and love, but still didn’t seem able to do what worked before and what I thought I had to do now.

So finally I gave up.

I said out loud, “OK, OK, it’s just not going to go the way I planned.   I get it.  I surrender!!  What now?”

Perhaps you’ve had a door in your life close, and you feel thoroughly stuck. You just can’t go on the way you have been. 

And then, if you allow it, another door opens.  And it’s much more beautiful…

That’s what happened to me.  The door began opening with a video that really inspired me:

Lily Yeh speaks at Bioneers Conference

Click here to see it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aFJkbwFllWY&feature=related

In it international artist Lily Yeh — a remarkable woman who uses the arts to heal communities and create personal and societal transformation — shows slides of her work with ghetto neighborhoods in Philadelphia and genocide survivors in Rwanda.

As I watched Lily speak I felt so moved and inspired – and, truth be told, jealous. “I should be doing something like that!” my heart cried out.

(Seems to me that when we feel jealous, we’re really just seeing some of our own unfulfilled potential realized in someone else… and it hurts.  Jealousy is a wake-up call from the soul.)

Suddenly I remembered the dream I’d had when I started my business over 6 years ago, painting “Possibility Portraits” and leading vision board workshops.  Back then I wanted to do this work with women in prison, and homeless families, and opposing sides in war-torn areas — to help people who feel helpless and alone see their own light and divine potential, and also reflect it out to those who’d feared and rejected them, to heal them all. I imagined a book and a website where the whole world could see: we are ALL different expressions of the same Light, Love and Beauty, all reflections of one another, truly all ONE.  I felt sure this was a path to peace on earth…

But I was too scared and unsure of myself to take a single step toward this dream. So it was soon forgotten.

Artist and social change agent Lily Yeh in front of community art project

Until I saw Lily Yeh.  That’s what she was doing!

And now Lily Yeh is coming HERE, to my home town of Ithaca NY!  She’s giving talks on “Creativity, Transformation, and a Shared Prosperity” and — the part I’m especially thrilled about — leading a workshop for artists, teachers, and others who are excited about creating public art as a process of community building and empowerment that transforms whole communities.

I have a feeling that being there will change my life. If you want to join me (wouldn’t THAT be fun!), there’s about 20 places left:

“ART, TRANSFORMATION AND  SOCIAL CHANGE: Building community through self-expression, creative action, and finding communal voices”

A workshop with celebrated artist Lily Yeh

October 24, 2011 8:30am – 3:30pm

Cornell University, Ithaca NY
Fee: $40 (that’s all, & includes lunch! Some scholarships available too.)

In this workshop, participants will experience Yeh’s methodology, getting to know one another through a unique series of experiences that build connectedness utilizing individual and collective voices, and multiple modes of expression. This workshop will be hands-on, experimental, and participatory… helping people create a new, open space into which they can enter on equal footing, find their voices, and figure out innovative ways to work together. Thus, participants will experience community-building in the making.

If you’d like more info or to register, email me back at pamela@innervisionportraits.com and I’ll send you the flyer with all the details.

Registration Deadline is October 7

Love to play with you there!

And have you had this “door closes, another door opens” getting-unstuck-thing happen in your life?

I’m sharing from my heart here, and I’d love to hear your stories and what you think. Please comment below.



P.S. Mysteriously enough, after I ‘surrendered’ and saw a new door I want to walk through in my work, the ‘closed door’ in my business opened up too… 

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